I always thought of myself as an emotionally stable person. I don't cry much, and I rarely make emotional rash decisions. When I heard of Sulli's passing, I surprised myself by thinking about her all day, then I was even more surprised when tears came that evening.
But if I was going to cry for any celebrity ever (which I thought would never happen), it was going to be for Sulli. I was never her fan (to be fair, I don't think I could ever be anyone's fan), but I have always admired her, not only for her striking beauty (I had written about that in a previous post), but also for her courage for standing up to the Korean society. In a place where women (and in particular, girl groups) have a very rigid standards for how to look, how to behave, and how to speak, she was a true rebel who was not afraid to fight against all of Korea. She has opened the stage for discussing many things that were too taboo to speak before, and I do not doubt that she has made Korea a better place.
Many Koreans used to say that Sulli would have been more successful if she were a Hollywood celebrity, and I can't agree with that more. Korea was truly too small for her. I hope that she'll be happy wherever she is now.
I thought that I'd share a song that I listen to often when I'm down and feeling hurt by the others, because it seems appropriate now, too.
์๊ณ ์๋ ๊ทธ ํ์ ๋๋จธ์
Beyond the smiling face
์ง์ฌ๊น์ง ๊ฟฐ๋ซ์ด ๋ณผ ์ ์์ด์
I can't see through you
๊ทธ์ ๋ฐ๋ผ์ ์์ผ๋ฉด ๊ทธ๋ง
All I can do is to smile with you.
๋๊ตฐ๊ฐ ํํธ๋ฅผ ์ ์ด ๋จ์ด๋
Even if someone has written down some hints
๋๋ฌด ์์์ ์ฝ์ ์๊ฐ ์์ด์
They are too small to read
์ฐจ๊ทผ์ฐจ๊ทผํ ํธ๋ ์๋ฐ์
All I can do is to solve them step by step.
๊ทธ๋ ๋ค ํด๋ ์๊ฒฝ์ ์ฐ์ง๋ ์์ผ๋ ค๊ณ ์
Even so, I don't want to wear glasses
ํ๋ฃจ ์จ์ข ์ผ ๋์ ๋จ๋ฉด ๋น์ฅ ๋ณด์ด๋ ๊ฒ๋ง
I'm busy enough keeping my eyes open
๋ณด๊ณ ์ด๊ธฐ๋ ๋ฐ์๋ฐ
and look at the things that my eyes see
๋๋ ์ง๊ธ๋ ์ถฉ๋ถํ ํผ๊ณคํด
I'm already tired enough
๊น๋ง ์๋ง์๊น์ง ๋ณด๊ณ ์ถ์ง ์์
that I don't need to look through the dark hearts
๋๋ ์ ๊ทธ๋๋ ์ถฉ๋ถํ ํผ๊ณคํด
Because I'm already tired enough
๋ ์์ ๊ธ์จ๊น์ง ์ฝ๊ณ ์ถ์ง ์์
I don't want to read the fineprints
๊ณต๋ค์ฌ ๊ฐ์ถฐ๋์ ์ฝ์ ์
Or find the weaknesses that one has concealed carefully
์ง๊ถ๊ฒ ์ฐพ์๋ด๊ณ ์ถ์ง ์์์
Because that's not nice
๊ทธ์ ์ ๋นํ ์์ผ๋ฉด ๊ทธ๋ง
I'd rather be kinda fooled
๋ฌด์ง๊ฐ ๋คํธ์ ๋ญ๊ฐ ์๋์ง
I can't see what's beyond the rainbow
๋๋ฌด ๋ฉ์ด์ ๋ณด์ด์ง๊ฐ ์์์
Because it's too far
๋๋จํ ๊ฑธ ์์ํ ์๋ฐ์
I guess I'm just going to imagine something amazing
๊ทธ๋ ๋ค ํด๋ ์๊ฒฝ์ ์ฐ์ง๋ ์์ผ๋ ค๊ณ ์
Even so, I don't want to wear glasses
์๊ณ ์์ด๊ณ ๊ทธ๋ฌ๋ค ๋ ๋ฏฟ๊ณ
I'm too busy fooling them, and be fooled, and then trust again
์์์ ํ๊ณ ์ค๋งํ๊ธฐ๋ ๋ฐ์๋ฐ
I'm too busy to imagine and be disappointed
๋๋ ์ง๊ธ๋ ์ถฉ๋ถํ ํผ๊ณคํด
I'm already tired enough
๋๊ตฌ์ ํ ๊น์ง ๊ถ๊ธํ์ง ์์
I don't want to wonder about others' flaws
๋๋ ์ง๊ธ๋ ์ถฉ๋ถํ ํผ๊ณคํด
I'm already tired enough
์ข ๋ ๋ฉ๋ฆฌ๊น์ง ๋ณด๊ณ ์ถ์ง ์์
I don't want to see further
๋๋ ์ง๊ธ๋ ์ถฉ๋ถํ ํผ๊ณคํด
Because I'm already tired enough
๋ฌด๊ฑฐ์ด ์๊ฒฝ๊น์ง ์ฐ์ง ์์ ๊ฑฐ์ผ
I don't want to wear heavy glasses
๋๋ ์ ๊ทธ๋๋ ์ถฉ๋ถํ ํผ๊ณคํด
Because I'm already tired enough
๋ ๊ฐ์ง ์๊ฒฝ๊น์ง ์ฐ์ง ์์ ๊ฑฐ์ผ
that I don't want to wear the pointy sharp glasses
If only we could have accepted Sulli for who she was.
Rest in peace, Sulli. You deserve it so much. But I'll miss you.
But if I was going to cry for any celebrity ever (which I thought would never happen), it was going to be for Sulli. I was never her fan (to be fair, I don't think I could ever be anyone's fan), but I have always admired her, not only for her striking beauty (I had written about that in a previous post), but also for her courage for standing up to the Korean society. In a place where women (and in particular, girl groups) have a very rigid standards for how to look, how to behave, and how to speak, she was a true rebel who was not afraid to fight against all of Korea. She has opened the stage for discussing many things that were too taboo to speak before, and I do not doubt that she has made Korea a better place.
So many of her photos online are smiling, and I never saw this coming. I learned that she once cried on her Instagram Live; the newspapers wrote this up as "The antics of Sulli continues." |
Many Koreans used to say that Sulli would have been more successful if she were a Hollywood celebrity, and I can't agree with that more. Korea was truly too small for her. I hope that she'll be happy wherever she is now.
I thought that I'd share a song that I listen to often when I'm down and feeling hurt by the others, because it seems appropriate now, too.
์๊ณ ์๋ ๊ทธ ํ์ ๋๋จธ์
Beyond the smiling face
์ง์ฌ๊น์ง ๊ฟฐ๋ซ์ด ๋ณผ ์ ์์ด์
I can't see through you
๊ทธ์ ๋ฐ๋ผ์ ์์ผ๋ฉด ๊ทธ๋ง
All I can do is to smile with you.
๋๊ตฐ๊ฐ ํํธ๋ฅผ ์ ์ด ๋จ์ด๋
Even if someone has written down some hints
๋๋ฌด ์์์ ์ฝ์ ์๊ฐ ์์ด์
They are too small to read
์ฐจ๊ทผ์ฐจ๊ทผํ ํธ๋ ์๋ฐ์
All I can do is to solve them step by step.
๊ทธ๋ ๋ค ํด๋ ์๊ฒฝ์ ์ฐ์ง๋ ์์ผ๋ ค๊ณ ์
Even so, I don't want to wear glasses
ํ๋ฃจ ์จ์ข ์ผ ๋์ ๋จ๋ฉด ๋น์ฅ ๋ณด์ด๋ ๊ฒ๋ง
I'm busy enough keeping my eyes open
๋ณด๊ณ ์ด๊ธฐ๋ ๋ฐ์๋ฐ
and look at the things that my eyes see
๋๋ ์ง๊ธ๋ ์ถฉ๋ถํ ํผ๊ณคํด
I'm already tired enough
๊น๋ง ์๋ง์๊น์ง ๋ณด๊ณ ์ถ์ง ์์
that I don't need to look through the dark hearts
๋๋ ์ ๊ทธ๋๋ ์ถฉ๋ถํ ํผ๊ณคํด
Because I'm already tired enough
๋ ์์ ๊ธ์จ๊น์ง ์ฝ๊ณ ์ถ์ง ์์
I don't want to read the fineprints
๊ณต๋ค์ฌ ๊ฐ์ถฐ๋์ ์ฝ์ ์
Or find the weaknesses that one has concealed carefully
์ง๊ถ๊ฒ ์ฐพ์๋ด๊ณ ์ถ์ง ์์์
Because that's not nice
๊ทธ์ ์ ๋นํ ์์ผ๋ฉด ๊ทธ๋ง
I'd rather be kinda fooled
๋ฌด์ง๊ฐ ๋คํธ์ ๋ญ๊ฐ ์๋์ง
I can't see what's beyond the rainbow
๋๋ฌด ๋ฉ์ด์ ๋ณด์ด์ง๊ฐ ์์์
Because it's too far
๋๋จํ ๊ฑธ ์์ํ ์๋ฐ์
I guess I'm just going to imagine something amazing
๊ทธ๋ ๋ค ํด๋ ์๊ฒฝ์ ์ฐ์ง๋ ์์ผ๋ ค๊ณ ์
Even so, I don't want to wear glasses
์๊ณ ์์ด๊ณ ๊ทธ๋ฌ๋ค ๋ ๋ฏฟ๊ณ
I'm too busy fooling them, and be fooled, and then trust again
์์์ ํ๊ณ ์ค๋งํ๊ธฐ๋ ๋ฐ์๋ฐ
I'm too busy to imagine and be disappointed
๋๋ ์ง๊ธ๋ ์ถฉ๋ถํ ํผ๊ณคํด
I'm already tired enough
๋๊ตฌ์ ํ ๊น์ง ๊ถ๊ธํ์ง ์์
I don't want to wonder about others' flaws
๋๋ ์ง๊ธ๋ ์ถฉ๋ถํ ํผ๊ณคํด
I'm already tired enough
์ข ๋ ๋ฉ๋ฆฌ๊น์ง ๋ณด๊ณ ์ถ์ง ์์
I don't want to see further
๋๋ ์ง๊ธ๋ ์ถฉ๋ถํ ํผ๊ณคํด
Because I'm already tired enough
๋ฌด๊ฑฐ์ด ์๊ฒฝ๊น์ง ์ฐ์ง ์์ ๊ฑฐ์ผ
I don't want to wear heavy glasses
๋๋ ์ ๊ทธ๋๋ ์ถฉ๋ถํ ํผ๊ณคํด
Because I'm already tired enough
๋ ๊ฐ์ง ์๊ฒฝ๊น์ง ์ฐ์ง ์์ ๊ฑฐ์ผ
that I don't want to wear the pointy sharp glasses
If only we could have accepted Sulli for who she was.
Rest in peace, Sulli. You deserve it so much. But I'll miss you.